My Sweet Weston

Dear Weston,

You are amazing!  You are about to be a big brother!!!  I can already tell that you are going to be the best big brother to Miss Lucy.  You are so gentle, kind, loving and sweet.

 I can't believe you will be 18 months soon! Where has the time gone?  I can remember so vividly the day you were born.  It was absolutely incredible.  That moment I saw you I knew the meaning of unconditional love and everyday since then I have fallen in love with you more and more. 

Your world is going to change drastically very soon.  I am not sure if you know it or not.  Sometimes I think you do because of how you act.  Lately you have been throwing more tantrums and have been clingy.  That is not like you.  At one point I asked your daddy if he thought you were beginning to not like me.  There have been days when you hit, kick, pinch, yell and throw things at me all day.  I wonder if it is your way of telling me something.  When you act like that it makes me wonder if you know she is coming and you are afraid or don't want things to change.  It will be a hard adjustment for all of us, but we will be ok, I promise buddy.  I have no doubt that when you get to know Lucy you will fall in love with her and you 2 will be the best of friends.  I am so glad she has you to look up to and to learn from.  I could not have asked for a better big brother for her.  Those days of frustration are quickly overlooked when you come up to me and hug and kiss me just because or when you lift up my shirt and rub my belly and kiss Lucy.  Yesterday I was sitting on the ground because it was one of the only ways I was comfortable and you came up behind me and hugged me and then rubbed my back for quite a while and leaned your head on the back of my shoulder.  You are so sweet. 

Weston, you have changed my life.  You have made me want to be better, more loving and compassionate and Christ like.  You have made me more cautious.  I can't imagine my life without you.  I love you more than you will ever be able to comprehend.  Thank you for being you. 

Love,
Mom